dusk

There are people I work in proximity to…

And if they died on the way in to work..

My life would be easier.

So I flipped it around..

If I died on the way Into work, everyone’s life would be easier.

And then I longed for it,in that bullshit fantasy way..

“big sigh”..

Can’t I just be dead?

Whhhhyyy does this take so long?

George Costanza hit a point where the line was written..

Everything I’ve done up until this point…has been wrong.

And I doubt George was fuckin around with drugs or sketchy people or any of it..

Ugh…

(paint on dirt)

I don’t wish they died on the way into work…I wish they won the lottery and just fucked off eternal..

I wish for such good fortune for the people around me…I hope your luck is so stupendous, that it takes you far away from me.. and my luck can still be shitty, that’s fine…

I accept it..

I merely hate what you do to me and ultimately what I’ve done to myself and if the soul was real…mine would be in the ICU..

And you call for judgement,just like I do..

You..

……

A hammer… God could squash me with a giant hammer.. That’d be alright…

Hey.. lemme ask you..

If you truly didn’t give a fuck… about stuff…

Couldn’t you just work part time?

Shouldn’t that be enough?

Like if you didn’t give a fuck about doing stuff or having stuff… couldn’t you afford food and shelter at 20 hours a week?

Fuck no lol…

Of course not..

If you’re going to live,it’s going to be in this game…

And that’s what I consider EVIL..

What’s more… try to find a place that will let you work part time..the entire staff will fucking hate you because you’re not selling as much of your life as the rest..

You don’t have children sucking on your tits as you drag-ass through this dawn to dusk of misery..

This…this gauntlet…

So when I raise my finger,know it is a true finger….

I don’t care about results..

Know that the finger is warranted..

Just like judgement…

Ssssssssss!!